mad world

public service announcement

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 13:19:33 GMT

I have a new journal. alannarama. Add me there, please, because I won't be using this one anymore. I'm not going to delete it, but I'm not going to be writing in it or reading through it either. Thankyou.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 08:48:12 GMT

Heh. I spent the entire yesterday mocking Ben, usually on the subject of Tom being his lover. I can't help it, it's a compulsion. Dammit.

Look, Alanna's found the shift key again. Or just decided she'd better learn to type properly. Wheee!

Old men keep giving my wrist strange/admiring looks but I LIKE my new bracelet and I don't want to take it off. Even if it does look a teensy weensy little bit like bondage gear. Dammit again.

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 20:40:12 GMT

this is tres tres quick since the astronomical phone bill has arrived and i am now only allowed online for ten minutes arrived.

silith luth has arrived and she is gorgeous and cool and a real person and everything. hee. but now she's poking me IRL.

i came back from holiday. hurrah.

exam results - bio a, chem b, physics c and maths d. ack. not happy about the maths at all. but the rest is tres good. less retakes than expected. hurrah.

personal statement is not going well at all. in fact, it's not really going. at all. ack no. 2

mucho <3 to all. i'll try to keep up with stuff.

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 10:04:34 GMT

im in mallorca

its nice

back in a week

tom tan and laura: good luck with results

adios!

freaky deaky dutch bastard

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 20:53:07 GMT

OMG A DEER WITH FANGS

You all need to click there.

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 21:36:15 GMT

here's something that's patently not a good idea: whilst bored and mildly depressed, complaining about your appearance then thinking "hey, i should cut myself a fringe!"

especially not when you're sat next to nail scissors.

stolen surveys and 2-day olds

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 20:49:40 GMT

rosa is tiny and i wish i was as enthusiastic about how beautiful she is as my nan, but really, she just looks like a baby. little. huge eyes. wrinkly hands. she's cute though. and surprisingly quiet (my uncle andy says it's a different story at midnight though, lol).

it's bad how much i can't function without music.

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 18:59:32 GMT

alton towers was mint. went on air, nemesis, the black hole, enterprise and oblivion. didn't go on the spinny thing 'cause i felt bad about leaving danny on his own (he didn't want to go on), so we had coffee while the others went on. but it looks absolutely amazing, so are you still up for going at the end of the summer?

i have a new cousin. sister of theo (cousin on my dad's side). rosa rita, born yesterday afternoon. going to see her tomorrow :-D

manchester was mint too. cheap beer, fantastic music and veggie cafes everywhere. oh and triangular shaped student digs. could definitely be happy living there for 5+ years, methinks. northern cities are so much friendlier than the south (with the exception of london).

survey pinched from thomarse

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 20:57:24 GMT

*The \\*
Last Cigarette:	uhm. at laura's sleepover a couple of years ago now. blame ovenfriendly.
Last Alcoholic Drink:	ack. at lydia's sleepover? i don't drink often
Last Car Ride:	went to asda yesterday morning.
Last Kiss:	erm. grandma-kiss this morning. proper-kiss absolutely ages ago.
Last Good Cry:	egad. not long ago
Last Library Book:	i have several upstairs but they're not very interesting. something by terry pratchett
Last book bought:	join me AND I GOT IT SIGNED
Last Book Read:	the lovely bones. read it. work through the crying.
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	the day after tomorrow
Last Movie Rented:	i dunno
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	shit
Last Beverage Drank:	strawberry and nettle tea. its like warm ribena with a hint of herb. mmmmmm
Last Food Consumed:	pizza. thought it was nice but it made me throw up. ack.
Last Crush:	haha not telling
Last Phone Call:	david about alton towers
Last TV Show Watched:	*cant remember altho TURN ON BBC 2 NOW* YOU MIGHT SEE ME AT THE PROMS OMG OMG!!**
Last Time Showered:	ten minutes ago
Last Shoes Worn:	trainers
Last CD Played:	nine lives by aerosmith
Last Item Bought:	brown teeshirt
Last Download:	sylvz tried to send me something by HIM
Last Annoyance:	hm. passports.
Last Disappointment:	guess
Last Soda Drank:	dr pepper (so misunderstood)
Last Thing Written:	ALTON TOWERS on the calendar
Last Key Used:	the tab key to get to this box. or the keys i'm typing on. so it depends on the last character of this box. which will be a &
Last Words Spoken:	fuck off
Last Sleep:	this morning
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	ben & jerry's in leicester square
Last Chair Sat In:	this one
Last Webpage Visited:	livejournal
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 20:44:30 GMT

so my little brother's a vindictive little shit, my dad's a complete arsehole at times, my mum's snappy and i'm the completely useless sulky kid, nothing to sulk about but unhappy nevertheless. bleh.

looking on the bright side, i'm going to alton towers on thursday. whee.

being till trained tomorrow. eeek. i don't wanna go on the checkouts.

the past few days have been empty. not as in not doing stuff. as in i go about normal life but i don't feel like it's me there, it's a me-shell or robot or golem or whatever and the real me has gone somewhere else. i space out a lot. i dunno. i lost interest somewhere.

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 11:50:53 GMT

london was ace but i'm too lazy to type about it in great detail.

party in the park was brill (even if we did have to sit thru some real shit *coughpeterandrecough*. the week at the hospital was fantastic, v. informative, taught me that doctors run around more than i'd thought, do more paperwork than i'd thought, and that there are tons more interesting jobs in a hospital besides doctors and nurses. still wanna do medicine tho.

went to see the day after tomorrow with beenie which was good. went to portobello market on saturday which was fantastic (did all my shopping there instead of oxford st.) and i got some doc martens! at last! in the end tho i didn't get the purple boots i've been after for the last three years, got some red shoes instead. v nice. i'll post pics at some point. maybe.

when mum and mags came up at the wknd we went to portobello then to the BBC proms! (mum's idea) i wasn't expecting to like it much cos three hours of classical music is usually a bit much for me, plus i HATE male voices and there was a big chunk out of faust and some other stuff, but it was actually excellent. definitely worth going to and only four quid!

i have also been inspired by my newly super-skinny auntie (beenie) to go get fit. yay.

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 18:24:06 GMT

OMG I'M GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARK AND ALANIS MORISSETTE IS PLAYING!!!

is that enough update, sylvz?

i'm going to london to stop with my auntie and do work experience next week. looks like it's going to be fantastic.

mother is still unrelenting on the piercing issue. and now i'm seriously thinking about going and doing it anyway.

university applications are worrying. but whilst everyone else seems to be changing their minds i'm still definitely aiming for medicine. that's good, right? only it's really scary. i'm really worried about not getting in, and i don't have a clue what to do if i don't because i really can't think of anything else i want to do!

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 14:18:55 GMT

my home internet connection is buggered and i'm not sure when it'll be fixed. i'm consoling myself with the harry potter computer game and hoping i'll be back online soon. in the meantime am checking emails and stuff at school, but am not around much.

which is a pity, cos i've been playing with the camera and also actually doing stuff lately. so could update-update. but nooooooooo

lydia pushed me in sutton resevoir yesterday. we got anna and sarah too. fun fun fun!

i tried to dye my hair red but its so damn dark that nothing really happened. there's a hint of red in the sunshine, but that's all. looks like if i want it colouring i'm gonna have to get the hairdressers to bleach it. eeeek.

what sound does yellow make?

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 21:28:48 GMT

omg we met danny wallace and we ate pizza in seven minutes to see him and he signed my book and we were first in line and i'm an official joinee, not a sort-of one any more and we spoke to the Leader (yep, danny wallace again) and there was a cute waiter in pizza hut and we did random acts of kindness even though its not good friday, because we belong to the karma army and we are cool.

"we" is me and ovenfriendly.

this is the cult we joined.

The Karma Army Needs You.

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 20:49:13 GMT

i think it's possible that i'm the laziest person on the planet.

well, exams are over which is a Good Thing, but i haven't done very well at all (don't give me that i'm sure you've done fine crap; i know what i can do and what i can't). which worries me slightly. scrap that, it worries me a lot. most people will laugh at me for this because i know its something i was extremely lucky for, but, well i've never had to work for school before. i mean it. i got excellent grades last year without lifting a finger (i mean it; i did no revision whatsoever for most of them). and this year i've done work, lots of work by my standards although admittedly not as much as i could have done, and i still fucked them up. i dont think i'll outright fail any subjects (maybe maths) but i foresee several Ds. there will be lots of resits.

so what's gone wrong? why can't i hack it anymore? i don't think i got stupid. i don't feel any different. but all of a sudden i can't handle the work. which is worrying because if i don't do brilliantly here, i don't get into medicine (even if i do do brilliantly that's not a given) and if i can't do medicine then i don't know what i'll do.

that's not actually true. i'd do a science degree and join the police. but that's not what i want to do, dammit.

the evening sunshine on the trees outside was beautiful and i wanted to capture it on film (or memory card, to be more accurate). but i sat watching for too long, the sunshine faded behind the houses and it disappeared.

have any of you heard of join me? danny wallace (Glorious Leader and author of the book) is going to be at waterstone's in nottingham tomorrow. ovenfriendly and i, his most devoted joinees, will be there. WE'RE GOING TO ~~STALK~~ MEET DANNY WALLACE! (thanks laura for reminding me this morning ♥)

EDIT:
my auntie decided to call our house, forcing my dad to leave the living room to answer the phone, in the 20 seconds that it took england to score their third goal. never mind that he saw the replays, he's still really pissed off. muahahahahahahahah!!

i may have the best new nickname ever....
We've all been pushed too far today.... says:
evening ur royal fluffiness

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 10:14:51 GMT

i figured out the binomial theorem bit. go me.

13 chapters to go.

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 20:24:29 GMT

i got the coolest thing ever in the post today.

can't do it (blood donation; you guessed that's who it's from, right? :-P) for a few months 'cause of my ear piercing though :(

physics exam today and whoa. i have never felt so clueless in my life. in all seriousness, i made half of it up. or even worse, just left it completely blank. eeek. stupidity does not become me. or anybody, i guess. i'm babbling again. i'll shut up now.

presentation tomorrow. i'm hoping it'll go alright although i feel guilty for not particularly wanting to win, still i'd rather not seem a complete twat while i'm on stage, thankyouverymuch!

i'm getting really really unfit again, and i'm far too lazy to do anything about it. bugger.

i really really can't wait to see you. ♥

adios for now, mes amigos!

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 18:16:34 GMT

i wrote a huuuuuge long update and then my computer crashed. so for now i'll just tell you that i bought

and michael and i made
.

Play sausage! Who has the longest?

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 19:45:40 GMT

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Sun, 06 Jun 2004 09:02:46 GMT

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damn you ste!!

i have never in my life been worried about exams before now. but i am. i can't remember a lot of the work and i don't know how to make myself learn it, because i've never had to before. and people laugh at me when i say that, but it's true. i'm worried, not about failing because big-headed though it sounds i know i won't, just about not living up to the standards i set for myself. and i refuse to lower them.

i'm reading the godfather at the moment. it's really good.

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 09:56:41 GMT

Gacked from shirasade. Type your username using your:

nose: crycrimsontrears

elbow: crycrtiumsontears

tongue: crycrimsontears

chin: cxrfdhyc rj oinb tgfreds\zadrfezx

foot (heel): cxdr4eydcxr8iumjkws90hnb5632weaq45rww

eyes closed: crycrimsontears

woohoo! i managed eyes closed!

i biked it to lydia's houseyesterday to practise this presentation for young enterprise, but anna and james didn't turn up. sarah did though. so instead of work, we watched "the importance of being earnest" (v amusing), ate wobbly jelly from the mould, and fought with cushions.

mum asked earlier this week if i wanted to go to nottingham with her and maggie today. only now she's gone and taken my brothers to warhammer with them instead, so i wasn't allowed to go because there wasn't enough room in the car. i've been abandoned! help!

i want to start taking moe pictures again, but i never remember to take my camera anywhere with me. shame.

how many calories are there in your cat? ---sarah, after announcing she was hungry

Sat, 22 May 2004 11:11:18 GMT

so yesterday morning i was woken at 5.15 by a pathetic little voice singing not-quite-softly "happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me".....long live little brothers.

this weekend panic revision for maths, since p1 is on monday and alas and alack i am stupid.

troy last night. i dont have the time now to go through it. but yes.

Tue, 18 May 2004 21:18:32 GMT

hehe. nicked from lalaith & shirasade.
[font color="crycrimsontears"][b]crycrimsontears[b][/font] <-- put this in your journal, replacing [] with <>. and it shows your colour. how cool?!

crycrimsontears...maybe unsurprising.

Tue, 18 May 2004 12:35:55 GMT

Whether long range weapon or suicide bomber
Wicked mind is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether your soar away sun or BBC 1
Disinformation is a weapon of mass destruction
You could a Caucasian or a poor Asian
Racism is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether inflation or globalization
Fear is a weapon of mass destruction

Whether Halliburton or Enron or anyone
Greed is a weapon of mass destruction

We need to find courage, overcome
Inaction is a weapon of mass destruction

My story stops here, lets be clear
This scenario is happening everywhere
And you ain't going to nirvana or favana
You're coming right back here to live out your karma
With even more drama than previously, seriously
Just how many centuries have we been
waiting for someone else to make us free
And we refuse to sleep
The people overseas are just like we
Mad leadership, amigos, unfettered and free
They feed one the people they're supposed to lead
I don't need it
We need to pray away
For the lord to make it all straight
Its only now we do it right

mass destruction - faithless

went to school. felt dead. went home, via the doctors. he said that he thinks i had a mild tummy bug on saturday (what i'd thought) and pulled a muscle in my stomach whilst being sick, hence the constant ouchies ever since (the bit mum and i couldn't figure out, and was freaking me out a little). all will be good.

physics practical tomorrow. so i really should go back outside and carry on revising. yes.

Tue, 18 May 2004 06:24:55 GMT

turn the sound up and go here. even better than lions in kenya. i promise.

let's see:
your name
do you smoke?
do you drink?
stronger drugs?
your favourite activity
you are	An undiscovered genius
you wish you were	Dating your friends girlfriend/boyfriend
you hope	It's not too late
people think you are	Dark
intelligent people though, think you are	The most wonderful thing nature's ever created
but, really, you're just	Quite lost

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